When an Aspie is made to feel Annoying

As an Aspergers girl I have experienced many times over, the feeling of being a nuisance because of  my actions and responses which are not considered normal social behavior.

The worst thing for an Aspie to experience is when a person struggles to understand us and our behaviour.  

The person instead of learning why we are different, they excluded us and  treat us like a nuisance.

It is uttermost heartbreaking for the Aspie to feel like they annoy everyone. 

Yet many do not see how deeply it affects the Aspie. Many Aspies end up experiencing depression because of this. I often think how can I change so people like me and not think I am annoying? But at the end of the day you can't help but be yourself especially if you have Aspergers.

I have a younger sister who is very capable at normal social behaviour. A person often finds it easier to interact and socialize with her rather then myself.

Then the cycle begins, I am left excluded and they continue to enjoy each others company while I am made to occupy myself.

What can you do differently when you meet an Aspie (how you can make them feel understood):

1. Accept them as they are

2. Tolerate them (they can't help the way they are, just as you can't help but be the person you are!)

3. Treat them the way you treat everyone else

4. Include them (don't exclude them) 

5. Return their efforts to be friendly.

We want to make friends just like everyone.

Take note of this quote: don't criticize what you don't understand.

~ Molly xo

My Recent Thoughts - Maybe You Can Relate?

Today I feel alone. My only true friend is not here at school today. So I have taken this opportunity to write about how Aspies can feel alone while surrounded by people.

Having Aspergers makes it difficult for us to develop socially. It's hard for us to make friends, and it's rare (particularly in my case) to find someone I truly click with and have them accept me and tolerate my differences.

Our differences aren't a bad thing, they make us who we are. But many cannot tolerate the way we are. Our awkwardness in conversations, our lack of or too much eye contact, our shyness, literalness and sometimes inappropriate responses in conversations.

My particular issue is I ask too many questions; clarifying, I'm always trying to prevent making mistakes (particularly in the work environment). I don't like to make mistakes.

By asking and clarifying I feel I'm making a mistake in its self and I worry about how people feel about my excessive question asking. This is something I can't really help especially because the people around me are so critical of me when I do make a mistake.

I do make an effort to talk and be friendly, but it just seems too hard to try and establish new friendships. I retreat and find it easier to sit on my own and do my own thing (When I don't have my best friend with me).

Today's blog post is just about my recent thoughts to let you all know how I'm feeling at this moment. I can summaries this in one sentence: I feel alone in an environment of people who cannot tolerate me.

Can you relate?

An insight of the inside of Depression, Anxiety and Aspergers

Today I want to share you how experiencing Depression, Anxiety and Aspergers feels and why you cannot be sure if someone is really okay.

Life is like being under a cloud. Most days it will float above, up in the sky.
It may turn black and threaten a storm but it does nothing. It builds up, getting bigger and bigger. Then one day all the build up will turn into a big raining thunderstorm that will go on for days or even weeks. That is when it will flood and life becomes a big muddy mess! You're stuck and you don't know when you will be free again.

You get along with life, however you come upon everyday struggles. You do not show it but some of them deeply affect you on the inside. This is the cloud building up. You get on with life, with the cloud hanging over you.

Everyday the cloud gradually builds up with your stress and tension.
Then one day the storm hits! You feel you can no longer keep it inside. Your tension and stress is shared among those close to you. You break down, you cry. You feel miserable, anxious, worried and cannot relax no matter how hard you try. As long as the storm carries on you show emotion to how you are feeling. You want the storm to pass but it persists.

Most people come out of the storm eventually. Then it will begin to build up again until the next storm.
People with Anxiety, Depression and Aspergers; their storms are more frequent because we build up much more frequently.
We find stress in more things. Simple things people usually brush off, we add to our cloud. Because to us, we feel it's negativity intensely.
This happens especially when you face not seeing any positives to life (Depression). When you get bullied for who you are and people do not understand you. Even when you try to teach them, they refuse to understand (Aspergers). When you feel anxious every hour of everyday, every little stress or doubt is trigger (Anxiety).

It is hard for other people to understand why we feel like this. This is because most of the time we do not show or share our storms (exception to family because they are living and dealing with the person). Mostly we feel no one will understand and it is so hard to explain how we are feeling on the inside. The rain and the thunder is released in our own time. Away from where we can be put to shame. Yet this adds to the effect of the storm because we desperately want people to understand.

You need to know:
Just because someone shows no emotion or change in emotion to how they are being treated. The stress they are being caused, or something big that's happened in their life. Does not mean they are 'okay' and they are 'dealing' with it. It means we are afraid you won't understand.

- Molly <3 xo

Difference between OCD and Aspergers Obsessions

Aspergers people can have a tendency to have obsessions.

When I was four I was initially diagnosed with OCD, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
I always wash my hands too much, and get easily upset when things were out of place.
The main reason I washed my hands too much was because I did not like the feeling of food, dirt, etc on my them. (hypersensitive symptom of Aspergers)
I apparently had an obsession over germs. I acknowledge I have a bit of OCD. However the little OCD obsessions I had were confused with my Apspergers obsessions.
This is when treatment for OCD didn't work.

Psychologists tried treating me for OCD only.
A person with OCD most of the time can be reassured which helps them stop what they are obsessing over. From my experience as a child with ASD I would meltdown and get highly upset when I was made to stop what I was doing.

Unlike a person with OCD, who does not enjoy their compulsive behavior.
An Aspie usually enjoys their obsession: Ie: An online game, school work, music, collecting, sport. cleaning etc. (Yes some of us do enjoy cleaning)
At times one obsession will become the full focus of an Aspies mind.
This will be all they want to do and concentrate on. This can be frustrating for their family members and friends.

My experience when I was a child, when I had friends I would constantly want to do this one thing.
I would spend hours doing it if I could. When they didn't want to, I would nag and wing and get upset and meltdown. This is one reasons I could never keep friends.

Overtime these obsessions will change or may never change.

Aspies have the abilitiy to concentrate and spend so much time and energy on one obsession. Aspies can become very successful people because of this. Look at Bill Gates and the scientists of humanities history.

This can be seen as an advantage. However if an Aspie becomes fixated on a negative obsession, things can become difficult and upsetting.
Examples of this are dangers, a risk to their safety/health and/or if an Aspie becomes interested in fashion or their appearance.
When an Aspie becomes aware of their physical appearance negative behaviours can become prevalent. This is because we are perfectionists. When we feel we cannot perfect, our self esteem becomes in jeopardy.

Parents can help prevent these negative obsessions by encouraging positive ones. By encouraging Aspies to concentrate on a positive obsession, positive behaviours come to place.
When we are concernating or becoming obbessive with our obbsessions it is highly important to introduce other priorities politely (Not by yelling or demanding). 
Keep watch and give Aspies guidance. Ask for help if they begin focusing on negative obsessions.

~ Molly xo

Introduction - Aspergers Me

My name is Molly.


For as long as I can remember I have always been different. I have had a battle with fitting in for my whole life.


My family and I have moved around so much.

I have been to so many schools and every time I went to begin a new school.

I would say to myself;

"this is a fresh start Molly. If you you change the way you act. Think before you do or say anything. You will be accepted. You will make friends at this new school".

This never worked. I always spoke what I thought. I didn't know then. This was something you were not suppose to do. 
I got bullied at every primary school I went to, because they didn't understand me.


In 2008 I left mainstream school. I began homeschooling through distance education.
I really gave my mum some hell. However we pushed through the struggles and I managed to completed year 10 of high school.

I am now in year 11. I have made an integration into TAFE to complete my last two years of high school.


Somehow I changed through my duration of Distance Education.
I taught myself 'the think before you act' rule. I use to be a crazy kid. Now I have turned myself into this quiet, shy, mature person. This however only applies around people who are not my family, lol.


I am a teenage girl with Aspergers Syndrome.
Aspergers is an Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD).


I now realise I made a mistake. I never told anyone in primary school I had Aspergers. 
I was always concerned when my mum mentioned it to someone. 
Maybe if I said something then they would know why I behaved that way. 
However I was young and so were and they. They would not have really known what Aspergers was, nor did I really. 


People with Aspergers (Not all these traits will apply to every Aspie):

• Can be hypersensitive: ie; sensitive to loud noises, can get emotional easily

• Find it hard to make and keep friends

• Find it hard to hold and keep eye contact, read and understand facial expressions and body language.

• Have an absence feeling of empathy or a prevalence of too much empathy. (Certain triggers set of our empathy. For example when I found an old picture of my cat. I never grieved until then. I broke down and cried for days when I found this)

• Do not get hints and social cues.

• Can have great intellectual capabilities

• Have good memories and ability to retain knowledge

• Can be very literal; such as with jokes and pranks

• Develop special interests which Aspies have great ability to have a full focus of. (Aspies can be very successful because of this capability because of their obsessiveness over one hobby/interest).

• Begin speaking at early age or usual age (Unlike Autism as Autistic children usually beginning speaking at a later age).

• Can have rigid and inflexible thinking: Can not get Aspie to change their idea or thoughts on a situation.

I have created this blog with intention to help other people and teenagers with Aspergers like me. I want you to know there are more people out there then you know.


I understand what it is like to:

• Not be accepted or understood by your peers

• Be made fun of and bullied because you see things differently to others

• Feel like you have a label which will be with you all your life (You need to bring it up as an excuse for the way you may have behaved in a situation).

• Feel like you have to do things a certain way no matter how silly it appears to others.
• Be pushed around from one psychologist to another, a never ending battle to find stability in the Mental Heath System.

• Feel embarrassed after meltdowns which you feel like you can not control them.
• Feel frustrated when you cannot get people to understand how you see a situation

I have so much more to share, but for now this will be my introduction. Please follow and feel free to leave a comment. I would love to hear from you! :)